The wind of regret

Don't know why, she is still very stubborn and bump broken my dreams, let alone I woke up the long lonely night taste!!!!! In fact, she and I had to break up.
Then I try to be very careful to send her a message: the clouds, after break up I just know how much I love you!!!!! We see a face it, no matter when, also no matter where you are. Actually, this is my true nature reveal, is the most true inner self hair voice and not by the so-called man hypocrisy.
Unexpectedly, her reply soon also very refuse: no, have the time you hear in the wind of the regret it, you will understand.
I don't want to hear it. I firmly don't listen! Sad enough? Is sad also enough?!!!!! Since and cloud after break up, I was afraid to listen to all the music, I sad even refused to listen to all the music!!!!! Think about it, I used to love, like how to hold her bosom, and listening to her song for me and the singing, I like her singing, her singing it soft and sweet!
Once remembered, with her for the first time in the lower, she alone and I meet the first sentence is: I took the child, very not easy, is like a big camels with a small camel walk in endless desert, do not know when is the end! Don't know why, but she's first words will be so let me move, can touch my heart the most soft things!!!!! Then I stared at her eyes, gently said to her, I also not easy, carry the children, if we can together, have a female, bring their son, we will also very happy! Say that finish I lowered his head, but found that her hands were a big, a big piece of erythema, I automatically caught hold of her hand, asked her, why is this so? Habit, she said flatly. Habit? I was amazed as she sat opposite me, look at this and I date of woman, what is this woman? Once suffered emotional torture!!!!! Accustomed to, like, all the suffering, and for her, all already accustomed to!
Remember, our love is funny from the start of the hand. After come back, I'll surf the net to get all the way to cure frostbite, with information sent to her, that her constantly to cherish oneself, care of yourself, if convenient, I want to take her to the big hospital looking. After marriage she told me that she first received my message, he cried all night. For a long time has no one so close to care for her! Listen to her words, I held her, and constantly kiss her and her commitment: I'll take to love her, not hurt her!
After marriage, I still don't learn how to run a home, how to love a person. Housework is my weakness, then I will bring the child, look at them to study, teach them. At first, they also to get on well, but in the end he two what all strife. I think in a relatively tolerant environment, more benefit at the reorganization of the family harmony, more benefit at the child's growth. Didn't expect their contradiction or upgrade, the only to one day, the elder sister to tube naughty younger brother, picked up the broom hit him on the head. At that time, I really was very angry, and did not eat food that night, I hope this is dangerous thing later don't happen again. No thought of her from my firmly opposed to his daughter gave his own close father. Daughter left home had no original so lively, my in the mind feel like a little bit of what the total.
Then something happened, is because she didn't give my son in class on newspaper subscriptions (this can't blame her, is and I discussed), I had mother-in-law by I don't at home, home big scold her for a meal, she was forced to call 110. Experienced this event, her heart there is the shadows. Don't want to take my children, children by his mother away. Home since then like let out the spirit of the ball, I love for her see also do see far, only to one day she asked me break up, I thought it was only slightly, agreed.
Break up can let a person think, why, and why will converge scattered? Maybe she is right, I to the child too, and a failing I do the father of responsibility, I do not reflect the majesty of the father, the adverse instead the growth of children. I was not a good love children, though, my heart is clear, she also clearly, I two are willing to do anything for the child, every one of the children are also depends on as yourself out. Children left, my mood reason, because after work rarely do household chores, help she is by happy, most of the time, or other is to look on the Internet to play chess. When she complained to me, I said nothing, or is a sentence or "woman good vexed also!" She often hide, harm in the house to cry. Now that I think about it, I felt very guilty! She is very kind to me, also care of very good!!!!! Happy with the time say in my ear, want to give me a baby. The children are not obedient, she said to me, if we just met a start, we will be good and happiness, good and happiness! I laugh her silly, said one can go back to the past! Think well, she is the love of children, she is also devote yourself to love me, and we just don't communicate well: both for their children how to education, or how to operate a family, or how to plan for the future. I have too much to her dependence, too much blame, and no shoulder I do men do husband do my father's job, or didn't do a good man good husband good father.
After getting, I understand her tears, I understand her to complain, I also understand the she decided to leave my mood.
Yesterday, I got her an E-mail, she said she made grade educational research group leader, said her Chinese will do well, and will bring children, teaching and wish I could soon find happiness. I'm from her statement read her confidence and kindness, read her hard and not easy, I think I is worthy of death, or hurt her!
I don't know that I can do for her something. I had to in the letter said to her, we still can trust each other friends, although we no longer together, if there's anything I can help her, I will back!!!!! If what she has something to tell me about it, I would be willing to listen to! And I said, day and gradually cold, please add a clothes, especially to protect yourself and her daughter's hand!!!!! I also told her, when I feel completely calm down, I'll go to listen to the song "regret" in the wind, and a lot of a lot of songs, she had to sing to me or has not come and sing to me.